Eni is still getting down

words ‘n’ things

Words are not my thing! I mean they are and they aren't. I write fabulous speeches and polished blog posts in my head as I walk around, but I sit down at the buzzing box and it all dries up. And that's just the surface problem. I have always found words tricky. I have consumed endless quantities of them, and still do today, and I am so easily moved to action by well written words that I can imagine giving up copy-reading as a life saving move. As for copy-writing... it's the devil's work. Just yesterday I bought, one after the other, two information products/books because I checked my email....

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Chica nueva en el blog , escribiendo en Español.

Ya era hora de que alguien escribiera algo en este blog en Español, no es por nada, pero eso de los idiomas se nos da poco regular tirando a mal y  como queremos muchos, muchos seguidores desde ahora, habrá un  post en Español. No solo hablare de arte, siempre he pensado que el arte forma parte de nuestras vidas, de una u otra manera siempre esta presente, en mis post encontrareis de todo un poco, lo que os puedo asegurar es que cuando  lo leáis no os vais una aburrir, es mas, querréis mas y mas, o  al menos eso espero. Así que seria genial tener un  montón de seguidores,...

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about gratitude

This should have been easier. I set out to write a post this morning before heading out with the furry family to help them let off a bit of steam, and then get some shopping in (very related to the post) but have gotten caught up in the admin of the website. I will be very grateful when I have finally gotten together a team. Webmaster is a title that sits rather uneasily on my shoulders. It's not that I don't think I could do it, learn how and all that, 'cause I sort of already have. I just think it's a full time job, for people who enjoy it. Or at least don't not enjoy it. And it needs to be full...

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going over the damn wall, too much Coffee?

So, how is it that seven dogs and five cats is such a problem? The cats aren't really that much of a special problem in themselves. Well, apart from Coffee the new kitten, who makes life miserable for every one at times. At the same time as he is one of the cuddliest, most in your face cats around. He sleeps with us every night. He often curls up in the angle between my shoulder and my neck, and purrs away like a little mad purring engine, which is both a delight and a horror at the same time. Mayday however, doesn't see him in the same light. Coffee makes life impossible for him. Whenever...

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Help, Hell and highwater (part two of the saga)

In my last post I mentioned that I have a problem, but didn't go too far in getting to what it is. I do have a terrible habit of getting off-track, or at least, trying to put in too much supporting information. I do the same when I speak, I'm good at the never ending story. But that's not the problem that I am referring too. My mental health is part of the problem, to be sure, but it's not the problem I wanted to talk about. The problem I want to talk about is part of the reason for the deterioration in my mental health more like it. I am sure there are very few CEOs or even...

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I need help, hell! I need a miracle (part one of however many this turns out to be)

I am in an impossible situation, and there is no easy out either. You can believe me when I say that, I've been over the options about a million times, even as it has all been building up to this point, and there is no easy way out (and there was only a couple of points when there have been outs, and I didn't take them) except the aforementioned miracle. I would assume you need a bit of a primer on what's going on. This could easily get real long, so might have to split it. (have changed the title to part one of many) I live in a village in the mountains in Andalucia, in Jaén specifically,...

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getting Eni, who is later to be getting down.

And later still to be getting put down. The story of Eni, my little man. 2001 till 2014, may his little body rest in peace. Eni once had a blog, which you can find over at Ha Llegado el Lider. He was the cutest little guy, and his life was cruelly and unnecessarily cut short by mobile phone use at the wheel. (that's my theory, how else would someone run right over him with both wheels at slow speed with a frantic person in front of their four wheel drive telling them visually and audibly not to proceed. They have to have been writing a wassap or similar to be paying so little attention...

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My vision statement

My vision statement

powerful stuff I am a heart based psychedelic visual artist who works from a deep feeling of love, awe and respect, gained from much suffering on the road to my true spiritual maturity. I make objects that change peoples lives by bringing a deep aesthetic satisfaction and I do plenty of formal and informal public art projects that directly support positive change in all they touch. I work at being a force for positive change through my example and my public statements and occasional public speaking. I have also published my views about life and creation in books and online and know that I have...

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however did I end up here, at this point?

and where is this point, hopefully on the very edge of this life, I want to look back on this moment as a new awakening, and I have been awake before. I just saw the quote "it's never too late to have a happy childhood" I am moved to tears by the thought that it really is possible to heal ourselves and our lives, if we just realise it. The younger of two children, I always would have said I had a happy childhood, because I was happy. Back then I think I was happy, I dreamed big for the future and felt like there really wasn't anything I couldn't do. Home life was a mess, but for a long...

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thoughts on Fuck, part one

thoughts on Fuck, part one

A new friend asked the other day about "the word". And I thank her for the question. I don't get it enough. She asked me if it meant something or if it was just gratuitous. I suppose I have plenty to say about this, so lets see how we go. I believe I could be accused of gratuitous use of the word, in the same way that Quentin Tarantino could be accused of the gratuitous use of the word fuck in his films. I however would not accuse him of it. His use of "the word" was not only justified, but indeed there would be none of the sense of power, life and urgency, or it wouldn't be so real,...

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